Seems these days I spend half my time sifting through the coal of my thoughts searching for the diamond of God's perfect will for me and my family. I see several opportunities to do the work of the Kingdom, or just plain work, and no clarity to which one is "the diamond". Or is it that I have a bag full of diamonds and just don't know which one to choose? I is really just a choice what we do for God? Do we over spiritualize instead of just living? For most I would say they have mastered the art of just "living for God". But as someone with a call to ministry I find it hard to just "live". I am compelled to do.
But which way do I go? Past experiences make me feel unsure. Presently realities make me feel unprepared or, at least, unwise it certain directions. Yet the fantasies of where I see "the diamond" are so grand and beyond my scope of possibilities that I find myself dreaming and not acting. But perhaps I must be reminded that diamonds aren't made at jewelry stores. They are made in the blackest of places under the most intense pressure, buried under an incredible amount of resistance from being freed. Perhaps my "diamond" is still in the rough.
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